There’s a park near my job that I visit on occasion.  Sometimes when I’m having a stressful day and need to get away with no particular place in mind, I hop in my car and drive to the park.  I cry there, I pray there, I sit and watch there.  I normally go about once a month or less but this month I’ve gone like at least 4 times.  I guess I’m having an end-of-the-year crisis…I guess I just really need some me time…

A friend of mine loaned me a book of his that is turning out to be extremely interesting…and ironically applicable to my current situation.  Here’s an exerpt from “The Dip: A little handbook that teaches you when to quit and when to stick” by Seth Godin

Seven Reasons You Might Fail to Become the Best in the World:

1.  You run out of time (and quit)

2. You run out of money (and quit)

3. You get scared (and quit)

4. You’re not serious about it (and quit)

5. You lose interest or enthusiasm or settle for being mediocre (and quit)

6. You focus on the short term instead of the long term (and quit when the short term gets too hard)

7. You pick the wrong thing at which to be the best in the world (because you don’t have the talent)

According to the book, “The Dip” is a hardship that if one chooses to stick it out long enough to come out of, then they differentiate themselves from the competition (who would quit during “The Dip”), thus making them “the best in the world”.

Okay, so maybe you have to read the book for that concept to make sense, but I must admit it’s a pretty interesting book–and very simple.

So I went to the mall yesterday (with my broke self-LOL).  Funny I can’t remember the last time I went to a mall (with the exception of Opry Mills, but that doesn’t count b/c when I go there, it’s usually for the food or the movies–not the mall itself).

But anyway,The Open Book  and I went window-shopping at Green Hills, which could be considered one of the upscale malls in Nashville.  We stopped inside one store in particular b/c I saw a dress that I liked on a mannequin and I wanted to try it on to see how it looked on me.  I have to give a shoutout to  Lauren at BCBGMAXAZRIA for giving the most amazing customer service I’ve ever experienced in retail–this chick was def working for her commission!

I tried on these dresses:

 

The dress that brought me in the store to begin with

The back of this dress attracted me, but it didn't really look good on

The dress that The Open Book, Lauren, and I all agreed looked the best on me

I would be remiss if I didn’t mention the store’s shoe collection.  The shoes were so sexy and could be described as my friend would say “eff me shoes” LOL  I felt sexy the moment I put them on and they weren’t “hurt-feet shoes” either.  Now how often do you find “eff me shoes” that don’t hurt your feet?

Once I get my finances in order, I’m gonna treat myself at that store…let me add that to my 101 list…

 

Tomorrow marks the first of a new month…and one of the most highly anticipated events of the year: The Victoria’s Secret Fashion Show.

Anyone who knows me knows that I love VS.  I’m a recovering VS addict–99% of my underwear drawer is VS, 50% of my pajamas are VS, and I even have some clothing and decorative items from VS, as well as cosmetics.  I used to not be able to walk by the store and not go inside, and once inside I couldn’t not make a purchase; when there was down time at work, I shopped VS online. And what’s a purchase at VS without the exclusive VS Angel card and it’s rewards points?–Yeah I was totally off the deep end…

Well I eventually paid off the VS Angel card, closed the account and cut up the card.  I can proudly say that now I’m able to walk past the store and keep my composure and not even be tempted to go inside (ok–maybe a little).  If I do go inside, I’m able to simply admire and exit the store empty handed–ah self-control and discipline feel so good!

Anyway, even though I’m over my addiction, I still love VS and look forward to this fashion show every year, so I’m extremely excited about tomorrow.

Here’s a look at last year’s show:

2008 Victoria’s Secret Fashion Show <–(full length show video)

PICTURES:

Adriana Lima

Heidi Klum

Selita Ebanks

Selita Ebanks (I love this outfit!)

Alessandra Ambrosio

I’ve been randomly hearing this song and I don’t know what actually attracts me to it.  It’s kind of quirky and I like it.  Check it out:

 

Owl City-Fireflies

Yesterday I was catching up with an old college friend.  We reminisced about our times in college and updated each other on our current lives.  In a nutshell, we both expected so much more for ourselves at this point.  I feel like I was so unprepared for this so-called “real world”.  It’s actually pretty funny b/c I remember how much I used to complain in college about how difficult things were sometimes, but looking back, college was a breeze compared to this.  College was a protective bubble that allowed me to float along oblivious to the reality of–well…reality.

I’ve learned so much in just a year.  I often think back to what I was doing about this time last year and want to smack myself.  What the hell was I thinking?! Sure I had a blast going out every weekend, spending an average of $50 each time, shopping, dating, taking road trips etc. etc.  Then I moved out, acquired REAL bills and sadly REAL debt.  I don’t even want to think about what my credit score looks like right about now.  Of course I have help if I get up the nerve to ask for it, but sometimes I don’t want to be dependent.  I figure if I call myself grown, then I need to figure out a way to support myself and not go running to mommy and daddy.

Well so much for feeling sorry for myself…I’m tired of wallowing in my own personal pity party.  I’m tired of talking about it.  I’m about to be about it *gulp* I think…

Lord be with me…

I wish that I could fly
Into the sky
So very high
Just like a dragonfly

I’d fly above the trees
Over the seas in all degrees
To anywhere I please

Oh I want to get away
I want to fly away
Yeah yeah yeah

Oh I want to get away
I want to fly away
Yeah yeah yeah

Let’s go and see the stars
The milky way or even mars
Where it could just be ours

Let’s fade into the sun
Let your spirit fly
Where we are one
Just for a little fun
Oh oh oh yeah !

I want to get away
I want to fly away

-Lenny Kravitz

 

 

Boy do I feel you….

Forget the ball game, the peanuts and the cracker jack (ok well maybe cracker jack is ok)…I’m ready for some pizza, popcorn, nachos, Dr. Pepper, a mixed Icee and these:

1. New Moon (I’m a sucker for atypical love stories)

2. Precious (Interested to see MoNique in a different role–love it when actors break their typecasts)

3. Avatar (I feel like this movie is going to be a visual-gasm for me)

4. The Box (this one has been out for a while already but I wanted to see it b/c it seemed pretty suspenseful and I like Cameron Diaz…although I’m used to seeing her silly side)

5. Planet 51 (gotta feed my inner kid)

My most recent viewings:

Couples Retreat: I went to see this movie with the bestie, her little sis, and her dad–which is always a fun combo.  Her dad is hilarious and totally uncensored.  Most people are shocked that he says certain things but I guess I’m just used to him now LOL.  Anyway we saw this movie b/c there wasn’t anything else out that we were remotely interested in seeing and we didn’t want to watch something else that we’d already seen so we decided to check it out.  I’m glad we did.  I wasn’t sure what to expect from this movie but I left pleased.  I love comedies anyway so that was a plus.  There were some life lessons snuck into the plot but they were easy to get overlooked if you were too focused on the comedic part–remember there’s truth in comedy.

Michael Jackson’s This is It: Saw this as a family outing (Mom, Dad, sis and yes the boo).  It was so touching.  I absolutely have to have this for my own personal collection.  Man if he had lived to perform just one concert it would have been such an experience I can’t even put it into words.  I really enjoyed this movie but I really wish there would have been a little more content to it–Idk maybe I was expecting something like Left Eye’s documentary before she died?  Anyway I still loved the movie.  I was surprised more people weren’t in the theater when I went to see it (I saw it the day it was released) but I was also relieved b/c sometimes packed premieres suck and detract from the movie viewing experience.

I Can Do Bad All By Myself: Loved the cast.  Loved Mary J.’s title track for the movie.  The plot disappointed me.  I feel like Tyler had some good stuff going and then he just bailed out.  He didn’t take enough time to develop the plot further–like seriously, when did this relationship develop enough for you to know you were in love with this woman? And then to end it with a wedding?! It seemed a little premature to me.  Oh and I just knew that little boy was gonna start talking by the end of the movie…boy was I wrong.  I mean could we have had some explanation as to why he didn’t talk? Some background story?  I felt the movie was a good attempt but I was left hanging again.  On another note I can’t wait for the sequel to Why Did I Get Married (even though the first one had its downfalls, I still thoroughly enjoyed it).

Okay okay…I know I’ve been MIA(missing in action)…once AGAIN!  I used to be on this blogging thing tough and now not so much.  I just feel like lately there’s not much excitement going on in my life to document–no plays, no rehearsals, no vacations, nada.  Well–maybe one thing–did I tell you that The Open Book and I made it official? Well if not, he and I are officially together–that’s old news (shows you how long I’ve been out of the loop) but still pretty exciting.

I’ll spare you all the negativity that is my life (such as being horribly in debt with plans of moving back in with the parentals) and simply say that I have GOT to do better in all aspects of my life.  I’m going to start with this blog.  I’m gonna start writing again (I just have to figure out some sort of system to keep myself accountable–hmm maybe if I don’t write then I don’t get to eat anything sweet that day…)  I’ll figure something out and when I do, you’ll be the first to know (that is if anyone is even still reading this blog LOL)–well the second–or the third…

Anyway, I guess this post is my attempt to update you and just to let you know that I’m still here and I’ll be writing again soon.

It seems actresses (and actors too) have a bit of a plight.  Besides sporadic jobs for newcomers and financial woes, there’s the dreaded possibility of the on-screen romance.   The idea of kissing or having a sex scene with someone you barely know (especially if either of you is in a committed relationship outside of your careers) can cause a lot of anxiety.    I know as an actor you have to be careful about the roles that you select–you have to think about what your involvement in a project says about you.  Although the circumstances are fictional, the roles you select say a lot about what you are and are not willing to do, what causes you support or don’t support, etc.

But on to the  point of this post…

Someone please help me out with this…

Are there any successful American actors or actresses who have NEVER had a kissing scene or sex scene?